Why Must We Always Fret?

Here's that moment you've all been waiting for... You, and your respective colleaugues, have been working so diligently for two weeks. Rehearsals begin to seem like another point earned on the pinball machine, or, another hundred dollars deposited to the old checking account. By Golly, we validate ourselves so much.......before the performance even occurs. By the time it does occur, we've done everything and made yet one fatal flaw- building a defeating sense of role assumption. You are prepared, aware, experienced, and it's just gonna flow because you've "worked out" all those bugs. Rather, you've only scratched them and allowed redness, itching, and possible infection to occur. Perhaps it is but a metaphor for life. Similarly, many overly-analytical tycoon types may also miss the whole point, regarding business markets, effective communication, and politics. It's really about energy. That energy, however, is a complete manifestation of underlying emotion. Are we fearful? How do we approach that fear? Are we curious? Where do our minds wander?

I, too, seek only to expose and understand those questions, for the important purpose of growth. I tend to grow away from actively proclaiming my answers. If I do proclaim my answers, they are mainly based in my reality and always subject to change, by means of constant, and never-ending, self-improvement. Though I learn from others and my experiences with others, I stay open to the here and now, without any hesitation. You see, it must always flow. This ties into my understanding of the imperfectly perfect, especially live, performance. Nothing is ever perfect, however, it may settle, relent, and find continuous peace. It may open, grow, and lend itself to more light and Love. It just may be all-knowing, all-feeling, and truly magical! The internal thoughts and feelings, and resulting musical energy of the contributing performers, will literally "set the stage" for any given performance. Therefore, we need each other for every moment. More importantly, we must always connect with each other, in every single moment. Any time we feel like we must fulfill a role, fill some shoes etc., we are entirely missing the point. In addition, we are also distancing ourselves from each other. What could have been becomes what tragically isn't. So much could have been learned, experienced and, most importantly, shared. We have all been there...Are we connecting to other people and our collective musical experiences at hand? We simply must! It really is the only way...